To hell with you

I lost my parents to an infidelity... I have no more than a meaningless life... But I am striving to get through everyday even when its not the best of times, I am trying very hard to push out the annoyances, the disturbances, the hatred, and the loneliness...We arent perfect...We are completely indifferent...dots cant make you say what you want to say, No one listens and they deduce what is to be understood, They cannot listen to what you say even when you try to hide the pain from your voice. The intonation differs when you sarcastically say things but the truth behind them is as clear as diamond glass that cuts you through your heart and it bleeds unto white roses. Maybe this is all I can say but you dont have to feel pitifulness for me there is no place for that...It is the most degrading emotion for one who has sunk.