"Idleness is the devils workshop"
Procrastination & short attention spans have been giving me panic attacks for the last few weeks at the end of the first halve of my 1st semester. I didn't attend the intramurals except for the first day because it gets too boring for me and I want to unwind and relax at home, but in my case its being a bum for the past few days...I'm really tired of being like this getting all depress because I feel like a failure! It was in my brother's birthday when I'm happy the most cause mom made me do part of the cooking yet after doing it I feel like 'My gawd this is tiresome!' I just wish I had some sort of motivation I could look up to whenever I feel like giving up and becoming lazy again~
After today I realize that I have strayed away from my true path and goals in life because I was too concerned in other people's business and their effect on my whole being as well. I never realized that I could lose my stress just by talking to my real friends and sharing them what I truly am inside because deep down I'm a different, unique and crazy mash of personalities that I've conjured in and out ever since the day I was born. And to think that from all 200-500 billions of sperms my dad release unto mom's reproductive organ I was the one with the best capacitation and acrosomal reaction : 3
Now I expect myself to pucker up and grab the shovel so I can start digging my grave into fame :D hehehe!!!
PRESENT TIME GOAL:
- Study hard-er so I can pass all of my subjects in school.
- Aim for a 3.5 or higher during pre-finals.
- Do my best in class
- Do overtime
- Try waking up earlier so I can study.
- Do more studying in my extra time
- Clean & help out in the household
- STRICTLY NO RELATIONSHIPS
- STRICTLY DISCIPLINE YOURSELF TO GET OVER IT!
- STRICTLY THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT IN LIFE MORE!
- Always remember who I'm doing this for (My future & family's honor)
- Disciplining myself so I can be a better person, daughter, and soon to be parent (if it ever happens) J
- Take charge of my life and become good at weighing things over before concluding my overall decision
- To acquire more knowledge, skills, and experience for life and work as well.
- Lastly, Relax and reread whatever you have written as a goal and make sure that your not being over the top again. ^_^
BUCKET LIST:
- Become a well know business woman in the fields of fashion, beauty and books
- Write A Book
- Become a Mangaka
- Get better at drawing & writing
- Travel the whole world
- Be adventurous and explore! Explore!
So, I'll leave it there for my bucket list and now I have to do my best and concentrate in school.
Chaoi <3
