I hate studying my stupid CHN.

Right now the tv and laptop has all my attention. I finished reading the interview with Ted Naifeh who is the author of Courtney Crumrin. You know I downloaded that since last year when I still had all my HackSlash comic book but I couldn't finish reading 'My First Maniac'.

Is there any better word than Hate itself?  Yes, There is. Love, faith and hope three daunting words that will never leave me alone like a mother who nags her children to insanity. Tonight I hear the music from the dark, savage notes written in their most diabolic forms and enchanting as a sorceress's spell. Is this another one of my musings from guilt ridden poetry or my own phantasm from a world that never existed, Instead of studying in a humane way I ended up cursing that profane book of Community Health. Yes, community health.

It is true that if I were a shaman equip with the knowledge of medicines and deadly poisons then I would not hesitate extracting revenge upon members of my clan, Individuals who have crossed me, and more often a community of hapless minded people. It would sate my hunger for death and destruction but death to mere mortals would sound ironic for I read in a quote that Death can no longer touch you once your dead yourself thus you have emerge as Immortal, as they say in that quote.

How do mother's become so mental? I really detest imagining myself turning into that kind of a witch, but ironically I do dream of becoming a witch not a Motherly type of course. My dogs are even dying because I'm not taking good care of them, Why should I when they've been greedily marked as my cousin's dogs. It was a good chance for me to have given my favorite beautiful white haired pup to a friend but he protested then they protested it that and so I said to myself "If she dies then its better off that way. Responsibility to an animal that is not mine does not make any difference."

Now I am truly decided never to take in an animal lest its for a good reason but I know I'll use that animal to include in my many recipes...

Of course, I love to cook.

Not exotic dishes though

Well, Ta-ta good women and men I have to painfully study this annoying chapter...