Terrible! Thing! To! Say!

Our body is one and only so we must take good care of it. But how and what can we do to take good care of it? The first thing that pops into my mind is exercising...Can't do it around this time because of my so-called hectic schedule. I've been trying to squeeze in time for that particular thing to happen heck even I wrote it once on my planner diary that my dad gave me at the start of the first semester. Now I'm stuck with my friend calls Bulimia~ sounds bulgy and fat to me and it doesnt help! Right. We all want that perfect flat stomach six pack abs but the increased projects and work we do in our lives makes me wanna just lie down and sleep for the rest of the day. Not too mention I hate the smell of the food here. I cant believe my room smells like laundry. The pink 3 walled room is connected to the bathroom and I can't seem to come here without sniffing some acrid molecules decompressing into my room (did I use that right?) Oh god. Finals are coming up the first halve of my first year in college is almost about to end and the second semester comes and its back to studying and exams!!! Dude, will I look good in that duty uniform? From what I can discern now my mom was right when she said that education is a race between human beings...I remember one documentary about the human females mating season that their likely to cheat on their father-like husbands for a more masculine-type of male...so their sperms and genes can be passed or mixed amongst her genes----that is definitely weird and educational!!! So all the churchs and jesus sayings about cheating is all about suppressing raw human instincts?! Okey~ if the church was a controller of these inner beastiality that we humans posess then is it something like defying the laws of nature and isn't nature GOD? Wheee~~~~ :DDD Gawd! I should finish reading my psychology tomorrow is gonna be one hellavu ride~~~~ and if I dont wake up at exactly 5 then I can forget reviewing for my chem labs test!

I came home feeling empty after hanging out with my friends at the mall. Everyone was having fun but I don't think the birthday girl was although she gave off a calm aura. It's been a month since we all last saw each other but it feels like eons!!! I had trouble making up my head whether I should go or not, but then I really wanted to wear my goth-fits yet my mom she told me I couldn't and she wouldn't chaperone me even if she wanted cause of that. It totally sucked we had a fit over cause I complained while throwing a fit behind her she overheard it and came back to punch me but she didn't and thank goodness! After that I cried myself to sleep (Hahaha ^__^;) When I think about it I know I was in the wrong I couldn't explain the things I really wanted to- even towards those open minded ones I really can't it must be because I have trouble communicating with people ( Though I'm kinda superficial in talking...). It was trippy last night cause I was blaming him suddenly since I brought him up on a conversation with a friend I never realized I was just hurting myself again. Those mental and emotional torments we're happening with a twist of negativeness... And I came to her birthday hang-out at the arcade saw a lot of fashionized teenage confirmist some wearing big printed shirts in caps saying 'Proud to be a...' here and there (Their pretty much shit to me even though its my own race...baaaah!!! ) Anyway, When I got home I went straight upstairs but after checking if the internet was plugged on so I went up and opened the previous photoshop tutorial tabs. Did some tweaking on some pics here and there and pretty much getting all uptight about my war with mom...As of now she told me she was the unforgiving type...It'll only be for awhile till our heads cool off for now I'd rather tweak some pics and master CS3

This style is called vintage I found it using on tutorial (sorry but I forgot to get the name and url I was in a random fit anyways) But this one v is my favorite XDDDDD

Experimenting

Backing up against the wall, My heart raced as the dark silhouette figure came closer, reaching out with it's hands I closed my eyes while trembling in fear then suddenly I felt a stinging pain near my left wrist my eyes shot open and quickly glanced at the enclosed calloused hands around my left arm. Within seconds my world started to spin around, vision blurred into a thousand multicolored lights the silhouette figure seemed to fade before me yet it's voice kept ringing in to my head. It was like entering nirvana the moment that needle injected heroine into my bloodstream. I could not tell whether I was alive and breathing in my dreams or whether I was dead going straight to heaven (or hell). Soon after the trip was over I found myself lying in bed, but not in my own room it was similar to an hospital ward. Everything was furnished in white not a speck of dirt found on the floor or wall, There was a huge mirror across the foot of my bed it's glass was tinted with black. I sat up noticing that my clothes had been changed into a patient's dress as expected from the contract I signed my life would end up to be like this...A guinea pig for drug experiments there won't be time for me to think about my future because it has already been decided. I will never see the light of day again except for the artificial laboratory lights. And I will never see the faces of my love ones again...

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Inspired by Jim...

Rinslette Maisonn (Miiiiitaaaanngg T_T)

Ugh...sorry? I tried hard with the coloring i just suuuck even though I was going for a digital art one uuugh I eventually turned to lineart craaaaaaaaap and sorry for being a cheap bastard but I had to lower the size cause the laptop gets funky! O3O but whats important waaas I finished her for a few hours XD yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! O______________O uuuuuugh!!!!!! the whole pic is 2x3 portrait cs3 pleeeaase bring yer waaacomm when u get here XDDDD PWEEEEAAASSEEEE!!!!!