How annoying it is to live with someone who doesn't like to succeed, who think's life is serve in a silver platter, who acts as if she owns the world, and does as she pleases. I live with a gir, we are of the same age she has it easy for her because my aunt from America is giving her the chance to have an education to go to prestigious private schools and universities, but undeniably is an idiot herself. YOu may think I am mean or just jealous because I am, You know why? because its unfair. Not everyone has a chance to go to school, find work in a well-known company, and live a financial free life. But I guess the last one is arguable. I may not have parents who are quite supportive in developing my talents and hopes, We may not eat in expensive restaurants, buy expensive clothing, have luxurious cars, or whatsoever...even though they themselve wished for these material happiness their children are the product of unprotected sex and they also we're overly too romantic in their young adulthood. I've yet to understand why some of my peers especially those who doesn't live in stressful environments and those that already have started to make their dreams come true. I am not agaisnt them but literally I am envious at times when I hear their parents left for abroad and works in meager but still cash in for their families future. My parents are two average personalities who works only for commissions and uncertainties...although their faces are quite simple they already planned thru with their insurances. I guess its my job as their daughter and I mean seriously to finish my studies and get myself a job...a simple plan that is very complicated but still its a simple step-by-step plan. The only problem is with this is that it does not says anything about the pro's and con's, growing up, wisdoms that one has accumulated thru out the years of experience, and mistakes that one is bound to revisit again and again. I don't like what I am doing and I certainly want to be a novelist of some sort one day. I sincerely do not want to be involve with people or anything that the "norms" think they have all the pleasure. Society is another reason why I don't like being in a band wagon of an occupation, I would like to spit on the dumb image media has inculcated in our tiny human brains that are prone to sizzle with expectations. Not only that every one I see are now turning into snobbish gitty monsters and yuppie bastards who thinks their at the life's peak. Or maybe I am just a little jealouse...

Terrible! Thing! To! Say!

Our body is one and only so we must take good care of it. But how and what can we do to take good care of it? The first thing that pops into my mind is exercising...Can't do it around this time because of my so-called hectic schedule. I've been trying to squeeze in time for that particular thing to happen heck even I wrote it once on my planner diary that my dad gave me at the start of the first semester. Now I'm stuck with my friend calls Bulimia~ sounds bulgy and fat to me and it doesnt help! Right. We all want that perfect flat stomach six pack abs but the increased projects and work we do in our lives makes me wanna just lie down and sleep for the rest of the day. Not too mention I hate the smell of the food here. I cant believe my room smells like laundry. The pink 3 walled room is connected to the bathroom and I can't seem to come here without sniffing some acrid molecules decompressing into my room (did I use that right?) Oh god. Finals are coming up the first halve of my first year in college is almost about to end and the second semester comes and its back to studying and exams!!! Dude, will I look good in that duty uniform? From what I can discern now my mom was right when she said that education is a race between human beings...I remember one documentary about the human females mating season that their likely to cheat on their father-like husbands for a more masculine-type of male...so their sperms and genes can be passed or mixed amongst her genes----that is definitely weird and educational!!! So all the churchs and jesus sayings about cheating is all about suppressing raw human instincts?! Okey~ if the church was a controller of these inner beastiality that we humans posess then is it something like defying the laws of nature and isn't nature GOD? Wheee~~~~ :DDD Gawd! I should finish reading my psychology tomorrow is gonna be one hellavu ride~~~~ and if I dont wake up at exactly 5 then I can forget reviewing for my chem labs test!

Eyeliners: How to do it with style!

If the above object doesn't work click here dew1403 in his video shows how to put on eyeliner for both guys and gals. Whats interestingly funny about this video is how he delivers it for the guys that gets called by fags or whatevs and then a great way on putting the stuff on with style! There is probably thousands or millions of DIY and tips on doing your own make-up. For me I'm just new at it so sharing about this can be a great start. With people basking in at comments on how they do it and some that don't get it much, And others who are just plain haters. But we can't live without them. Another great site for make-up and beauty tips are in http://www.makeupgeek.com they have forums, vids by the original make-up geek herself, tuts, swatches, idea gallery, and you can also buy Mac and Nyx brands from their online store along with make-up tools as well. But I don't suggest this is the only great site to look at! Heck there is probably millions more of these kind of website's now! So go check at Google.com they might have a long running list of these. ;] happy hunting!

The Freedom Writer's Diary

Yesterday at my new school during our English classes we watched this movie called "Freedom Writers" I never guessed that this movie would make me feel touched deep inside. As I watch I felt a longing to help. It felt so deep, intense and so passionate inside me I think now that I sound a little crazy about this. I skipped school today because I was getting annoyed at how I keep on procrastinating on doing laundry. I did it today maybe my grandmother's food woke me up a little and I started doing it there after (The food was gross!) I opened up the laptop looked from some post of "Freedom Writers" found one in Toudou.com all tho it was all written in chinese characters I couldn't understand but using the playlist was the easiest cause it was the same as youtube players. Anyways, I did laundry while watching it. And something hit me... I wanted to share this vid's with you guys so like watch them if you like 'kay? Freedom Writer's part 1 Part Two Part Three Part Four Part Five Part Six Final